I decided to write in my blog because I don't remember when the last time I can say that my life has been HARD, and I just need to vent I think.
I had a wonderful experiencing giving birth to Rae Rae, Even though it was an unforgettable one it was very stressful. I am a hobbit always looking for the next adventure and Cody knew I was going to plan something. I tried to hold off until I couldn't any longer and told him it was time to move. He didn't like the idea at first, but the more things happened Cody realized that it was finally time to leave Las Vegas. That is usually how it goes with us. I am pulling and dragging him into big leaps but he is the one who always has the final say.
I was so happy that he agreed that we could move. I was a packing maniac. While cody was working away in Laughlin I was stressed because I would be alone with the three kids.
To pass the time I was constantly organizing, cleaning, and the house looked amazing when I was done. It was ready to show and we called our realtor who is our dad's friend who did real estate in Utah. It was exciting to find a realtor that was perfect for us at the perfect time. We had the goal of getting our house sold by spring, so she gave us suggestions to work in the house to make it sellable. We decided to put it on the market and that same day we got our first offer, and it was a full price.
I didn't think it would take long but that quick was amazing. She also said she was willing to pay full price if we were willing to move out quickly, as soon as the day of closing. That panicked us and we countered with five days after closing. So as of right now we have until March 5 to move.
Cody tells me that he can see two more weeks of work in Laughlin. I did not want to be alone for that long so I decided to drive up with the three kiddos to utah to spend time with my family and also look for a house to rent. It was supposed to be a happy time of laughter and friends, and then the kids got sick.
The kids have been getting sniffles all summer but this was full blown flu with throwing up and croup cough. I was up all night with Zion, then sage, then zion again, then sage, then raelyn got a stuffy nose, and them ME. I cleaned up lots of throw up. I think the last time I got the flu was when I was pregnant with Sage, and don't remember the time before that, maybe even in high school. And all during this time of all of us sick I went and looked for houses to rent, and also signing and emailing papers long distance to our realtor. And trying to keep up on my knitting and shirt orders.
It was kind of discouraging after the first week when I couldn't find many houses to rent with dogs. I started calling houses and asked if they would allow dogs and they would yell NO. I saw a few that were either too dumpy, too far away, not a fenced backyard for Rosco, too pricy, rooms were so awkward and small that I didn't know where I was going to put my kitchen table, or if my mattress would even fit. Then the second week I was ready to live in a trailor park because there was just no where. I asked Cody if he was willing to have his dad babysit Ross so we could have a place to live and he said out of the question.
By the end of the two weeks I was so exhausted and living out of a suitcase with three kids was extremely frustrating. During that time other family members were also going to life changing and hard situations as well so it all added to it.
We drove home without any houses lined up and joking about being homeless and I should start putting holes in my clothes or shop at A&F to fit the part. I knew I wouldn't because I have lots of family who is willing to help us, but it would be frustrating trying to live somewhere for a while until we found a place. It was a humbling experience for me because it wasn't going as smoothly as I thought, and I had to be willing to take what comes.
I had my sister in law go see a house for me in American Fork and we were anxious to get in there. We had many phone interviews and applications and credit checks, and we still haven't heard back from them.
We have already been denied by three other landlords. It was like getting an slap in the face every time. I was thinking why are we not getting into anywhere? We aren't that bad of people that they wouldn't want to rent to us.
Then I realized that we have three kids and a dog. We are moving out of state so they can't meet us. Our credit is bad, but if it was good we wouldn't have this problem we would just buy a house. Cody doesn't have a job in utah yet because he is working here in vegas. I tried to explain that we will make equity on our home and will have enough to live until he gets a job. So it sounds as though we would not be able to pay rent. I was even bribing people with three months rent in advance. As of today, Still nothing.
When we got home the kids were so excited to see Cody and they were running around the house looking for him and it broke my heart. Cody calls and says that he thinks there is another couple of days of work. I said we all need to see you. He drove until midnight to come and see us for a couple hours in the morning Sunday. but he was so exhausted he slept that day and went back to work in the afternoon. I could tell he was so beat from working and it worried me a little that he was working with a lot of stress and horrible hours sometimes til 2 in the morning. He kept saying he was going to push through it and I was just trying to support him. Tuesday morning he says, you need to come get me I can't do it anymore. I was excited to hear that but was stressed on how I was going to come get him with all the kids. Bless my dad he drove me and raelyn while my mom watched zion and sage and picked him up at 10 and got home at midnight.
It was relieving that at least he was home and we would be able to move on the next step, but we haven't heard back from the appraisal and that is so stressful because this could determine if we would lose the sale or not. It isn't over until we have that money in our hands.
We don't want to start to move until we know that this person is going to follow through. When I make decisions I usually am very confident and have to convince everyone around me that it was a good one. This time I am kind of questioning it now that it isn't going as I planned. I am just praying everyday that I am just able to handle what comes and just have a roof over our heads and kids fed. Cody is fixing all the things that the inspection came back with but still just waiting on everything else and time is going by so slow.
If the sale goes through and we have a little longer in the house that solves the problem of having a place to live, but then our financial situation will be even scarier. We are becoming more dependent on that money from selling.
I'm not sure if the kids got sick again or if its still just lingering but they still aren't better. I know I just need to focus on them right now because they are going through this with us. I also just feel really selfish because I have been so focused on all the bad things that I am not seeing that I am not being grateful for all the help we have had. and I have neglected my church duties and feeling I need some spiritual uplifting.
I keep telling myself that this is all happening for a reason, that there is lessons to be learned and it will all be great in the end. Before all great things there is chaos before it. Hopefully we will have lots of great news soon.
We are waiting for our calmness after the storm.
