How I cured vertigo, anxiety, and depression with one herb.

I don't believe in medications.

You can call me a hippie or radical or whatever you want. I don't even care about the name calling anymore because I won't be silent about doctors lying to patients about the affects of the prescriptions they are giving out to people. They are making people sicker and they have no responsibility for what they are doing to families. There is no way I will ever believe that drugs that are addictive, change your personality, change your brain function, become dependent on, and could potentially overdose and die, be of any use to people.
If Jesus were walking the earth I believe he would see Big Pharma as the most evil and corrupt thing that is on the earth. Above terrorism even.
People who know me already know my strong opinions. And just because you have an opinion about something that you know to be true in your heart, you are attacked for it.

To avoid criticism 

say nothing, do nothing, be nothing. 

-Aristotle 

I have experienced medications destroy my family and watch it break down others. I have pure knowledge of the corrupt business of getting people numb on medications. I wish I had a dime for every time someone told me, "It's not an addiction if my doctor gave it to me."
I think the thing that I want addicts to know, is that your little dip in the water, has a ripple affect that hurts those closest to you. And then trickles out to affect many people.
The irony of it all is addicts hurt those around them, and everyone's solution to the betrayal and traumatic pain is medications. And the cycle continues.

There are those reading this that are thinking, "How can she judge someone who takes medications, she doesn't know how I feel."

The truth is that no one knows how you feel. Your truths and your experiences are your own. Sometimes it can help us to find people who have been through a similar experience so that we don't feel so alone. So we can support each other and teach each other the next steps to take. That is why God is your true guide and direct you in the right choices for yourself. God knows YOU.

 I know what debilitating depression is. I know what PPD is. I know what anxiety attacks look like. I have been through so much betrayal trauma that I have experienced physical symptoms. So if you want to think that I am a person who doesn't understand mental illness, or addiction. Well, I do.


Two years ago I had gotten a flu that made me very sick. I had two ear infections that were so incredibly painful.
It took my body a long time to fight off the sickness because of the amount of stress I was under.
I was having emotional stress trying to keep my business alive, worrying about my husband's choices, and not knowing if live was going to work out in the end.  And most of all living in fear that Cody was going to overdose and the fight would be all over.

That debilitating fear led me to my body physically breaking down. I developed a new problem in my life and it is commonly known as "Vertigo." It's not a condition, it is a side affect of an underlying cause. It is a feeling of the room spinning, and even closing your eyes doesn't help. It causes extreme nausea and chronic headaches. It could last 2 minutes or 3 days.

The google searches will tell you that Vertigo is caused by tumors, Meniere's Disease, or ear infections. So I tried garlic in my ears and the vertigo would disappear. So I was sure that it was my ear infection causing the problem. But anytime I had a big event, or needing to take care of the kids I was so debilitating sick with Vertigo. I couldn't find the "trigger" because it would happen watching TV or about to plan a big stressful event. I tried motion sickness pills. I tried exercises for Meniere's. I didn't have insurance and no money to go to the doctor. My mom paid for a doctor visit, and he basically told me nothing was wrong, and made us pay for tests that didn't even relate to Vertigo.
Total waste of money in my opinion.
I had to just face that this wasn't going away. I had to admit to myself that I had developed a general anxiety disorder. On top of my Vertigo I was waking up in the middle of the night with I call "night terrors" I would thrash my arms violently like a psychopath and hitting Cody to wake up, before I was even awake. My heart would be pounding and feel like I was in immediate danger. It would take a few minutes to realize where I was and talk myself down, and say everything was fine. I was not getting good rest because of these terrors. So I decided that it wasn't a physical problem it was emotional distress. I have also talked to two different people with a spouse with an addiction and told me they also had Vertigo attacks as well.

It was actually Cody who told me about CBD. He listens to Vitality Radio on Saturday mornings. He won't listen to me when it comes to health but he loves this station. They had said that we can buy CBD at his health food store in Bountiful and Cody wanted to try it for pain relief and he wanted to try it for me with my Vertigo, Anxiety and Depression. Now I believe in natural medicine but I was a bit skeptical that this was going to help me. I believed that it was just for pain management.

I had done some research about it because I was curious about what it was and how it would work.
I was so blown away about how effective and amazing this product is.

Now before you click out because you would never use medical marijuana, I am going to tell you that CBD is legal in all 50 states. It has no psychoactive effects on the brain. I promise that you will not start wearing flowers in your hair, and jump on a hippie bus to San Francisco if you start taking it.
What once was a drug for hippies is now a valuable medical option.

THC and CBD are both cannabinoids that affect the CB receptors in the brain. THC effects the CB1 receptor and gives the psychoactive effect that we do not use as a treatment. CBD works with the CB2 receptor and it works with the nervous system which is why it is the perfect anti-depressant. Along with that it also is a natural antibiotic, and antioxidant. So why does the FDA want nothing to do with it? MONEY. There is no money in curing people with cancer, MS, PTSD, seizures, Alzheimer's, and chronic pain management, especially with something that we can grow ourselves. 


About 9 months ago I bought the trial pack. The first time it was immediate relief and didn't have anxious feelings. The next couple of days I didn't think it worked,  but by the 10 days I knew that it was helping me.
We also bought the topical one for Cody and he swears by the pain relief he feels on his back. I have bad knees from snowboarding, and I have put it on my knees and was blown away by how fast the pain went away.

Because these pills are not a cheap fix I couldn't get it sometimes and I would definitely feel the times when I didn't have it the Vertigo would come back.

If you see my previous post about BWRT you will know this amazing man that I met that has helped me with more than one thing in my life. He did muscle testing on me and found out that I had two inner ear infections. The main problem though was the emotional stress was inhibiting me to heal them. I had to deal with my emotions in order for my body to allow it to heal. He has helped me the past 6 months or so by "directing" my vertigo as a temporary relief. He has been so kind to help me any time I needed his help. And yes it did work every single time. It was the only relief I had in years. But I needed to find a better and more permanent solution.

I have been taking CBD since about February 2018 so more than 2 months and I haven't had one episode of Vertigo, only two "night terrors" and have felt much happier. Because my body has been more relaxed my body has found the capability to heal. CBD is also an antibiotic and I believe it cured my ear infections. I felt my ear "pop" twice and haven't had any problems with ringing in my ears or any Vertigo. When I was trying to find a cure for Vertigo there was very little resources to help me. I did find someone who talked about having a Vitamin B deficiency. So I want to add that to your list of things to help if you suffered chronic Vertigo like I did. But CBD has helped my life tremendously and I only wish I can help someone else's life. You can take it regularly or as needed with no side effects or withdrawals.

Mental illness is a real thing. But, just because we can suffer from it doesn't mean it has to control our lives, and that it will never go away. If our bodies are harmed it has amazing skills to heal itself. Our brain's are capable of doing the same thing. I believe there are alternatives to
harmful, and addictive substances. There is always another option. CBD may not be the answer for everyone but I encourage people to at least try it as an alternative. Depression, Anxiety, and Addiction are all side affects of a underlying problem that can be cured when you find the source, and find a treatment option that is effective and harmless.

CBD vs PAIN PILLS

1. You can not overdose > overdose happens every single day 
2. It is non addictive > so addictive it makes you a criminal to keep up your addiction 
3. It gives immediate relief > pain pills don't always work with your receptors and must take more to get the same effect 
4. Does not alter your brain > makes you high so that you can not operate a vehicle or take care of your family for that matter. 
5. Grown from a plant > made in a lab with such harmful chemicals they wear masks 
6. no withdrawal symptoms > incredible painful long and short term withdrawal symptoms 

CBD vs ANTI-DEPRESSANTS/BENZOS

1. Cures patients with seizures > if you stop taking them they cause seizures 
2. Can not become dependent > you have to be monitored by a doctor to safely get off if you decide to stop taking it. 
3. Cures anxiety, PTSD, social phobias etc.> temporary relief until the next fix 
4. Does not cause suicidal thoughts > the main side affect is suicidal thoughts 
5. Safe to give kids, animals and adults > if your child consumes they will die 
6. Many studies proving its effects > no studies that prove serotonin levels are caused for depression

I could probably go on, but I think you need to research for yourself and don't just take my word for it. We should all be actively questioning and praying for the right answer for ourselves and for our families. 

That is the beauty of the Atonement and the agency we have on this earth. We are able to make mistakes and make correct decisions. But it is up to us alone, not anyone else. 

**PLEASE DO NOT BUY ANY CBD OIL. THEY ARE NOT ALWAYS PURE QUALITY OR A REPUTABLE SOURCE**

To purchase call Vitality Nutrition 801-292-6662

They an ship anywhere in the US.  

Buy the Plus CBD oil -GOLD Formula soft-gels if you need pain relief as well as depression relief. 

 60 capsules  $89.95

If you need it just for emotional stress relief you can also purchase the capsules that are less expensive. 

 60 capsules  $69.95

There are other options like drops and balms. This brand in these two formulas are what worked best for me. 

What has worked topically for Cody's pain relief on his back is the Muscle MX stick. 

It is about $39.99 for the stick. There is the option for warming or cooling and it is your preference for your own pain relief. You can also purchase smaller samples to try it first. 

If you have any questions for me or just want to chat about anxiety and depression or addiction in general. Shoot me an email Kbushell8@gmail.com 

Zion's LDS Baptism

Zion turned 8 on December 9 2017.

I had a talk with Zion about who he wanted to baptize him and he of course wanted his dad. Cody is still smoking and not worthy at the moment to perform a priesthood ordinance. I know that it hurt Cody that he was not able to do it. And it was definitely an awkward moment trying to explain that Cody could not do it. I know that most of the time when we talk about it baptism it is usually done by the father and sometimes the Grandfather. I told Zion that Grandpa Don would be more than happy to do it.
I think that he still didn't understand that Cody couldn't do it because he kept saying he would rather that his Dad do it than Grandpa. Then I just felt crushed for my Dad because Zion and Grandpa Don are very close, and he would have loved to do it. But in my opinion I think that Zion wasn't saying he didn't want Grandpa, but he was just disappointed in the fact that his Dad couldn't do it.
So I talked to Cody about quitting smoking and working his way back to the church so that he would be able to do this for Zion. So we chose the option to wait for Cody so that it would be a good motivation for him to get better.
So I totally had this mom guilt because I could not help Zion is his situation. I could not control Cody, and I could not make Zion be okay with not being baptized by his Dad. So after talking to Cody a few more times I made it clear to him that if he wasn't serious about getting better soon, then he can not promise Zion that he would do it. Because I know that Zion was ready and willing to be baptized. He was so excited to have the Holy Ghost. Zion has asked me, "Mom will the Holy Ghost tell me if a bad guy is going to hit me so that I can duck?" He is very into Ninja fighting, and Lucha Underground wrestling right now so I am not surprised. But Cody agreed that we didn't want Zion to wait for him when this was such an important step in his life.
So I had prayed about this predicament I was in and tried to find the best option to get Zion baptized, and him be okay with who was baptizing him. The only other option that we had was someone in the ward, or my brother Chris. He lives in Arizona and he is very busy so I didn't think he would be able to come. But I decided to ask Zion if he thought that Chris would be a good person to baptize him. When I said Chris his little face lit up and he was like,"Yeah I want Chris to do it." I think he also just wanted to see his Uncle Chris, because we only get to see them once or twice a year.
So Chris said yes and he few up on February 2.

And February 3 2018, we all met at the stake center at 10:00 am.
And Zion was baptized around 11:30 ish by his Uncle Chris.

My Mom keeps all of her kids clothes so she happen to have a darling vintage tweed suit that was once Uncle Chris's and he was the cutest little man I ever saw. He was so excited all day, and he kept saying over and over how it was the best day of his life, and it was such a good day.

Cody has been very sick with coming down from his detox very fast because we had decided that he was ending the medication for good. I knew that he was not going to feel well so I didn't ask him to participate on any of the program. But during the program he whispered to me, "How come you didn't ask me to do the testimony?" I said, "I don't know go ahead!"
Now if you have ever met Cody you will understand that whenever he speaks he moves people. He has a spirit that makes people want to listen and he is also a very emotional person.
So as Cody spoke about his testimony and how he was so honored to have Chris baptize Zion when he was not able to. And that he felt the spirit so strong that day that he really missed the feelings that had when he was strong in the gospel. And it was very sincere, I haven't seen Cody that inspired in a while. He pretty much had the whole room in tears.

It has been a battle every week with Cody and I usually end up taking the kids by myself to church. And have to answer awkward questions like where Cody is and what we have been up to. But I do it for my kids. They love church and the lessons they learn. We really change when we become parents. And everything is not about your needs anymore. We become responsible for their health, their spirits, and their overall well being. And I know that taking them to church is the best thing I can do for them, even though I know that I am struggling in other areas.
Afterwards we took some pics of the family that was there so we an always remember Zion's special day. We went out to eat at Station 22 Café, and my niece got a call from her friend that one of her friends had passed away from an overdose. And my heart aches for my niece because that is the fear and heart ache of addiction and I hope that we don't lose any more people to this awful epidemic.
The next day was fast Sunday and Cody got up and bore his testimony again, and it definitely shocked me because he had announced that he had struggled with a substance problem and he was ready to come back to church.
Even though I have blogged about our journey and most of my friends and family know, Cody has not spoke about his addiction or admitted it to anyone except for my and people in the treatment center. So I know that Cody has made mistakes along the way, but he is battling his very hardest and I know that he is going to beat this challenge and he will inspire others that it is possible. It is possible to be happy and because of Christ's Atonement we are able to be clean again and in God's eyes we are pure.

Then we went home and watched the Superbowl and made ourselves sick with tons and tons of food.
And I must say that JT disappointed the half time show. And there wasn't enough good commercials for me to enjoy any of it. It is only worth it for the many random foods that you eat and just pray that your stomach doesn't punish you later for it. It was a good weekend and enjoyed watching my first born get baptized.



Zion's journal writing

It was the third of February I was happy and it was the best day of my life. It was fun being in Chris's clothes when he was 8.  Before I went under the water I was scared and nervous, but after I felt very easy and happy, and I felt clean. What I remember about Dad's talk is how I am a special person in the family and I help everyone so much. After I took pictures with my whole family and it was nice.
Then we went to eat with my family and the rest of the day was just a normal day.


I made Zion write this for me because I have been too busy to have him write it down. So now I have record of it, and eventually I will somehow get around to making the kids books of all their achievements and journal writing. If anyone has any pointers on organizing all the kids stuff, please send me an email! I could use some help.

BWRT Utah

I do believe that God puts people in your path that you need in your life. I was fortunate enough to meet a really awesome friend who is a fellow wedding planner and since day one of our friendship it felt like we have known each other forever.
She has always helped me with whatever I need. Our girls have become good friends. And her husband is also a kind and amazing person.

His name is Matthew Coles. He is a videographer for BYU sports and he also has a passion for mental wellness. Because they have become aware of our situation with Cody's addiction they offered to help our family and share with us a new therapy technique that I think is an amazing opportunity to be a part of.

This therapy is called BWRT Brain Working Recursive Therapy.

It is something that has made more sense to me than anything else has before. The brain has a memory response to trauma that is through the neurological pathways in the brain. It explains why we sometimes don't have free will over our mental processes. It will always respond in the same way until you change the pathway to a positive response.

For example, if someone is deathly afraid of spiders and every time they see one they go into a panic, before their conscious mind and body are even aware of the situation. Your emotions are out of your control because your brain is wired to always respond in this way.


The difference with BWRT and other type of therapies is that you do not have to talk about the uncomfortable details of the fear or trauma. The session is short, and you will see permanent and significant changes in your brain pattern. This therapy changes the way the brain responds by replacing the negative emotion with a positive one.

Matt explained to us that this technique is ideal for addicts. Because after taking the drug for a long time the brain changes and becomes dependent. When stress or life happens your brain is wired to go directly to your source of relief before you are even conscious of the choice. I have always known that addicts have a hard time stopping but this explains to me why. Until their brain responds differently to stress it is going to take a lot of effort and therapy to train the brains response to stress.
I was so thrilled to find such a new and awesome technique that could change lives of many people.


Shortly after Matt talked to us about this therapy I wanted to use it. I have been through so much betrayal trauma and the way I respond to the betrayal is full of fear and anxiety.
So while I was talking to Matt about possible treatments for me I had got an opportunity to be on TV on KUTV fresh living for Zurcher's Party store. I was so honored that I got such an neat opportunity. But being on camera terrified me. I was losing sleep, and freaking out.
Matt asked me if I wanted the BWRT for the fear of being on camera, and I was like YEAH! I will do anything to be able to be on camera without making a fool of myself.

You can view the video here

http://kutv.com/features/fresh-living/how-to-perfect-holiday-centerpieces

I wasn't able to go to his house at the time and so he was able to do it over facetime. This was the day before I went on TV and the next morning I was actually calm and collected and thought wow this could probably work. Then as I was driving there I was getting nervous, then finding the building I was getting more scared, then watching all the other people go before me I was getting more and more nervous each minute and was like I am going to tank. As soon as we got to my segment and the camera was on me, my heart slowed down, I breathed slower, and I was able to get through it with minimal fear. I can honestly say that without this treatment I would have been stuttering, sweating, and they probably wouldn't even air it. Years of being afraid of being on camera changed when I did this therapy.

I plan on doing more with Matt, with all of my emotional traumas and stress. I want to take control of my emotions and better my life. I believe that medications numb the healing process and doesn't help you. Your brain is an organ that can be healed like any other part of our body. This techniques shows your brain how to heal. I am also hopeful that this could be helpful in addition to Cody's other treatment.

If you want to learn more about this technique you can visit.

www.bwrt.org

If you are someone who suffers with anxiety, phobias, stress, depression, PTSD, emotional trauma or any other brain related illness then this technique is for you. Which I think is basically everyone.  You won't regret trying it. So far the testimonials has been effective every time, and only positive experience. If this doesn't work for you then it won't hurt you and you can try something else. Don't let anyone tell you there is one way to do things. There is so much opportunity out there and we can experiment with what works for us.
BWRT worked for me and I will continue to share with you more about my sessions and the improvements that I see.
I believe in this therapy so much that I am helping Matt with his social media and website. Because I believe that this technique needs to be heard about for anyone who is suffering.


website

www.bwrtutah.com


Instagram is

www.instagram.com/bwrt.utah



Tell Matt that I sent ya and you are ready to take control of your life.

xo xo

Why your brand needs a stylist

I started Havenwood Design Co. coming up on two years ago. I started with wanting to rent out my antiques for extra cash because I needed to find a way to make some dough from home.
When I did some of my first styled shoots to show off my rentals, people immediately noticed my skills at styling. Very quickly I got many inquiries for styled shoots and vendors wanting to be a part of the magic.
I was so flattered that so many people are wanting my skills. I decided to re-brand the rentals to styling and rentals. I have always loved weddings so I thought, I will be a wedding planner. I have already been doing it for friends and family and thought it would be a good fit for me.
So I reached out to weddings vendors and sent lots of emails to people trying to get my name heard. And it worked! I started working with people that I only dreamt of meeting and soon found so many new friends. For the first time I felt like I found my place and knew where I was headed.
In my attempt at building my portfolio and proving to the public that I knew what I was doing, I was getting brands of all kinds asking to be a part of my styled shoots.
And one of the things I learned is that although I love planning weddings and being a party of something so huge in someones life, I also really love being a small part in building other businesses and branding their products.

So Katie Creative director was born and I also plan on re-branding once again. It will be a slow process because I am taking some time to slow down and really make sure I make the right decisions as far as my business is concerned. I want to work with people that are cohesive with my brand and also appreciate my talent and my aesthetic. So in other words, I don't want to just work with anybody I want to be an exclusive designer! I am so excited for the things to come with my brand.

So I am going to toot my own horn for just a minute and help people understand the need for a stylist. What do stylists do and why you need one for your business.

Pretend I own a company and I sell kids pajamas. You can call up a photographer and find some people that are attractive and put them together and get some images. Then you put them up on your website and social media. You might believe that since you used a professional photographer and not just your phone for your social media that it must be awesome and represent your brand well. And then you wonder why you aren't maybe getting the clients that you want.

The truth is that every website you shop from whether it is nordstrom, urban outfitters, pac sun etc. They do not pick a photographer and call up a model and put them together. Someone put that together. Someone styled the outfit, picked the model for the right theme, chose a photographer that goes along with the desired feel, they styled the hair and make up, they picked a location that fit the styling of outfit, they told a story for the customers to read. Most people don't know that when they are mindlessly online shopping,  that the items that are most appealing is not a hot model, it is not awesome photography skills, it is how the image made them feel. It made the customer feel like the wanted and NEEDED to be in that picture. They needed to be in that location, with that cozy blanket, with that pair of jeans. And what makes someone feel that way?

STYLING. 

Before you hire anyone else to represent your brand, whether it is a web designer, logo branding, photography, etc you hire a stylist FIRST.
If my brand sells kids clothing and you use mainly soft neutral colors, you want your photographer to represent that brand with light and airy/whimsical images. You won't hire a moody wedding photographer. A stylist will pick the right look for your brand with the right photographer. And if you sell pajamas you don't want the children to be outside in a field. That does not feel realistic for a child to be wearing pajamas in a field.
The biggest mistake that brands make is believe that if they pick a pretty outdoor spot for their product they will have great photos. You can't do all outdoor photos if your brand is not typically used outdoors. You have to pick the location that tells the story of the brand.
If I have a outdoor clothing brand, you want the majority of your photos to be outside. If you own a soy wax candle company, you want your items to be styled in an indoor setting. It just makes more sense.
Of course as a stylist I love challenges in editorial and artistic type photo shoots. Sometimes you do things out of the typical norm to create a magical environment. The trick is it STILL has to make sense. It has to feel realistic in its own artistic element. It has hard to explain to people who do no style, which is why it is important that you hire a stylist.

Another mistake brands make is believe that their entire feed has to be their product. If you own a company selling handmade wreaths, you don't have to have a million pictures of wreaths. Life styling branding with a stylist, will create a reason that people want to buy YOU. Not your wreaths. You can do flat lays with wreath making supplies, you can have yourself in action, you can even have a few things unrelated like baking in a kitchen with a wreath in the background. And make your item come to life. And make people HAVE to have your product.

Since I have been doing this kind of styling for so many brands, I have neglected my own company. I am going to team up with some really awesome people and create this for my own brand. And I invite any of your entrepreneurs and husselers to join me on creating your new company or re-branded business to slow down and create something right the first time.

You can see some of my recent work on my design page instagram

And I have been slowly adding more killer photos to my website, and you can check it out

www.havenwoodesign.co 

Bloggers, Brands, Companies, Small business owners, events, newly weds, Call me up because I can style your next adventure.

xoxo

How you can help someone in need

I know that I have promised a blog post from Cody, which we will still do. But we have been extra crazy busy this month and I also needed to take a break from blogging. I have been dealing with vertigo for a couple years and it is just hard to get things done when I have the sickness.

I also want to first thank all the people who were involved in our auction for Cody's treatment. We were both so overwhelmed by people's generosity. There were some who donated large amounts of money that totally blew me away. And we had so many friends who were willing to donate and support us. It is a great experience to be able to receive help from people and so humbling. 

Which leads me to the post I want to talk about today and it is how to help the needy. It has also been on my mind since all of the natural disasters and I know it has affected everyone with inspiration of trying to be more of service to people. We shouldn't wait until there is a large disaster like that. We should ask ourselves how we can be helpful to those around us. 

When I think of being of service my mind automatically think of the homeless shelters, natural disasters, and helping people move. Maybe helping people move is a Mormon thing. 

But we have visiting and home teachers for the reason that we may be able to help someone on a very personal level. To be helpful in many ways from being a listening ear, a person you can ask if you can borrow some sugar, or someone who can help you will a real life crisis and get you through it. 

I know in previous posts I have talked about my visiting teachers and how awesome they were. I was too scared to ask for help and even though they didn't know my situation they served anyway. 

The past couple of years we went from being totally independent to completely needy. And it was a very hard transition. Especially for me because I felt like it was totally out of my control. And always being an independent person it took a lot for me to ask for help. When I did there was so much weight off my shoulders. I could finally breathe and not hold it all in.  The people around you that you believed would judge you or wouldn't understand, are the ones that are first to your aid. And it turns out to be a bonding experience with people when you allow people to share burdens with you. 

So as I went through this experience I want to share with you my thoughts on what I found being helpful and what I felt was more problem for me than help. Now things can always get twisted, and I want to be clear that I was so grateful for ALL the help we got. 

But there was things that I found was enabling Cody's addiction, and I also felt some things were discouraging on my end trying to be an mom of four kids and attempting at staying afloat. 

number 1

Give fresh food that can make meals 

Do not give someone needy your old groceries or cans of food. This was true for me, and I have also seen it be true for natural disasters. Sometimes it takes more stress and time to try to make a meal out of some random groceries. Or when we get random cans of different foods that we can't really make a meal out of, it is very disappointing. We have gotten moldy strawberries, or cheese that tastes kind of questionable, and when you are stressed about feeding your family this is seriously the worst. Just because someone can not help themselves it does not mean that they deserve your old food. 

 Also being LDS, we see often the relief society bring meals for after you have a baby. This is the best when we are able to receive so much love and support from our sisters. Most people are very considerate and helpful, and other times we have received things that my kids would never touch, or just not nearly enough food. When I am bringing a meal to someone I want to first make sure there are no diet restrictions, allergies, or things that they hate eating. It is not helpful if you bring something the kids are not familiar with and be too difficult for them to make a change in diet when they are already having a big change with a baby. 

When it comes to canned food drives for homeless people or during the holidays, It is actually causing more problems with finding help sorting and organizing all the cans, and they have to be distributed out evenly so not one family gets 10 cans of green beans. It is hard to donate to charities because we have seen so many corruption and people who abuse peoples charity in stealing peoples money. but donating money to a charity that is able to buy fresh food that will be organized in giving to families it is more helpful than canned goods.  

See this here to explain more about canned food drives. 

The best thing you can do is find a reputable source that will make sure the money gets the right products for the right people. One charitable organization that I trust is my church's organization. 

Latter day saint Charities 

If you read through these charities and understand how the church is organized, you will also see that the LDS family services is there for members to get help with addiction treatment, and family counseling. I want more people to be aware of this because we shouldn't have suffered as long as we did. And even though there are many options for addiction help we should feel love and support when you are so vulnerable and needy when you have an addict in your family. 

number 2

Do not use needy people as your dumping ground with your old clothing, toys, or unwanted items.  

I am so grateful for my ability to thrift. Meaning find good stuff at thrift stores because clothing four kids is no joke. And they are growing every 3 months. When people found out that we were financially struggling they wanted to help and so they went through their old things and gave it to us. The people close to us knew us and our kids sizes etc so it was always so helpful to have donated clothing. 

Other times when someone donated us toys, clothing etc they did not have our needs in mind it was more of a box of things going to a donation and gave it to us instead. This causes more stress on the needy person because if they can not use any of your clothing, like not the right season or size, then we are the ones who have to get rid of the items for you. 

I also recently saw on the news somewhere about now people who were trying to donate to the natural disasters recently were donating things that we simply not helpful. Like winter coats to Florida, or old books. When you are thinking about people who are needy you must thing of what THEIR needs are. Not what you are able to get rid of. That is the thing I want to emphasis the most. It is not up to you to decide what is helpful to them. You ask, you hear, and you decide what in those areas you can help with. If you can't then you can ask someone else who would be able to help in the area of need. And do not tell someone that they don't need something. If someone needs help in a way that you don't agree with, it does not mean you can tell that person that they don't deserve that help. 

Number 3- Do not enable someone to not help themselves

This is a hard one for addiction. Behind every addict is an enabler. In most cases, addicts can find multiple enablers to get what they want. And it is very tricky to understand because enablers believe they are being helpful and it is hard for them to see the help as problematic. And this also goes hand in hand in codependency. 

When you get into a codependency relationship the enabler becomes over worked, and the addict becomes under worked. It is total unbalance and you can't have a healthy relationship. When you enable you feel like when the needy person is in distress you feel like it is your responsibility. And you do things you normally wouldn't do to help their situation. One reason why stopping enabling isn't easy is because the addict will get very upset. And they can blame you for their problems. 

If you find yourself in having this type of relationship with your spouse, sibling, child, or whoever it may be, you have to stop immediately. 

How you do that is put up your boundaries. There are lots of books and ways of understanding codependency and how to establish boundaries. And I would do that TODAY if you have this kind of situation. It will slowly crush you. But you first have to admit that your complete sacrifice and service is not really helpful at all. 

You could be one helping act away from putting them into their grave. Sometimes they have to lose their job, lose their family, or live on the streets.  When you love someone you don't want to see that happen. But you have to allow them to see their consequences. Becoming a person who doesn't enable takes a lot of faith and courage. You have to trust God that he will be the caretaker for that person in their time of crisis. And it is also important that we take care of ourselves and not become victims of the addicts behavior. 

When specifically talking about enabling an addict here are some examples. 

Do not give them money 

Addicts ask for money quite often. Usually it is a very reasonable request. Like gas money for a job interview, or money for food to meet a boss or lunch. It will always be a reasonable request but if you know that this person struggles with addiction you should NEVER give them cash. Sometimes you justify that just this one time they are probably telling the truth.  If you give them money you won't see it again, and you could potentially be helping them kill themselves. It is very important you do not give an addict money. 

Do not clean up their mess 

When they puke all over your porch, or come to your house drunk/high and need a warm bed, you are essentially enabling that person by not giving them consequences of their actions. They need physical evidence of what their addiction has led them and if it is being in the street throwing up all over the place ( I know this is gross ) or go to jail, they need to experience this. It feels like helping when you love the person and don't want them to suffer those consequences. But until they hit their bottom they will not get themselves back up. They will just continue to abuse you and take everything you've got. 

The definition of enabling is : taking away the natural consequence of someone else's behavior. 

Do not do things for them that they could normally do themselves 

This is classic enabling is doing acts for people so that they can not do it themselves. Moms are notorious for doing their children's laundry, finding them jobs, registering their cars, calling for doctors appointments, etc and we all know the intentions are from pure love of a mother. However, it is making that person not be able to learn life lessons on their own. It is the old saying "If you give a man a fish he will eat for a day, if you teach a man to fish he will eat for a lifetime." We need to be helping each other learn how to be independent.  Sometimes we do need help from family, and you must learn the difference between helping and enabling. 

I am going to admit that I was enabling Cody. It was a freeing experience to understand that I was. So when I was giving all my energy to Cody's addiction I had not room left for myself and the kids. I was finding myself needing help because I wasn't using boundaries.  This is the domino affect of addiction. 

Your addiction affects your whole entire family!!!!!

So I hope that some of these thoughts will be helpful for the next time you want to be service to someone. It takes true charity to understand someone else's needs. You have to crawl down into their hole and really see and understand what that person's needs are. 

thanks for reading!

Love you all. 

xoxo 

LOVE BUG probiotics

People who know me personally know that I am a health nut. It is not always easy because of the way our culture has made it into a hovering parent or simply unnecessary to be so involved in our kids health.
The most important thing I want my kids to understand about their health is that it is THEIR body. Meaning it's their job to take care of it. I want to teach them tools and understanding of what is healthy and what is not. It is their responsibility to make good choices for their health so that they will be able to develop and grow. As well as learn healthy eating habits and health awareness when they are older.
I can't even express how important it is to take care of your body. I have first hand experienced being very healthy with lots of energy, and putting everything else first before my health and slowly watched myself fall apart.

For adults and children, the most important health choices is about our gut health. If we have an unhealthy gut, our bodies are not able to heal, give us proper energy, or makes us have a low immune system. What we need for good gut health is probiotics.

They are something you can take on a daily basis and can help your body find balance. I found this product. Love Bug Probiotics. My favorite part of their brand is that they have different types with herbs that fit your needs. Because I am a nursing mom still, I check labels and question if I should take it nursing. They have one for pregnant/lactating moms called labor of love.
and also other women's health formulas.

I have been taking it every morning for about a month and the first thing I noticed was I became more regular with my digestion. I had less stomach and gas pains. I had more energy because my body was not using the energy to digest food.

They also have a formula for colds and my husband has been grateful that we had them handy when we had a plaque hit out house.

What is even better about Love Bug is they have some for kids that are special for the kids age!
it is seriously brilliant because the older kids have tiny little pills that they can swallow. I tried to give some to Sage but she acted like she was gagging every time and I was torturing her to take a pill.

So she started liking the baby and toddler kind that is a powder that you put in water. You can put it into a bottle or sippy and it tastes like water! I am so happy that they didn't try to flavor it and it is flavorless because they don't even know that I put it in there.

I have seen an improvement with all the kids taking these every morning before school and I am very happy with them. I will definitely be a solid customer of this brand.

Smile Brillant -Teeth whitening part 1

I am a coffee drinker.

I am sorry but I live for an iced chai tea when I am a mom on the go and need my energy. My husband bought me a french press for Christmas and I started getting out of control with the coffee. I think it is part of the reason I wasn't coping well and started getting vertigo. Coffee is just not good for you. I have gone off and on it since I was 16 and worked at Callie's Cafe. I started drinking it since it was free and I was a tired high school student trying to work and do school at the same time.
My whole life I have always been in a hurry to do everything.

I also believe that is part of the problem with caffeine addiction and any other addiction really, is that we are pushing ourselves to do more than we should. I think that instead of accepting I can't do it all I will push even harder. But you guys, Caffeine withdrawals are no joke! I thought that they would only last a week or so with the headaches and the tiredness, but you could be fine for a couple days and then your body reminds you again that you are low on caffeine, and you must have it now or you won't get through your day.
Since I have been getting sicker I have more motivation to quit drinking it and I have not been drinking it on a daily basis. I have had a couple chai lattes here and there but I am doing much better and starting to feel like I can beat it.

Well after I finally realized what the affects of coffee are I have noticed my teeth are not as sparkling as they once was and wasn't ready to accept the damage I have done.
But then Smile Brilliant wanted to send their teeth whitening kit. Hallelujah!
I can erase the damage I have done and start fresh.

I haven't bleached my teeth since I was in high school. I have also been really scared of using any of the crap at the grocery store. And I always use the whitening toothpaste and it's totally a scam. I have never seen any improvement. But, I was nervous about opening up the box and it would be super complicated to use.

The instructions are very clear on how to use it, and it is really a simple process.
First you have to make the molds for your teeth whitening trays. They are custom to your teeth so you know that it will cover all over your teeth.
You mix the blue and white mixtures together and stick it in the teeth tray, then stick it in your mouth and hold 30 seconds (I forgot to hold that long.) and then pull it out.
Luckily mine both worked on the first time, but there is another set in case you made a mistake. And of course while trying to make my molds the kids think it is play-doh and just want to touch it.  Watch the video of Raelyn sticking her sweet little finger in it.

Then you mail them in to the company with the envelope they provide for you, and wait or your trays! It was a very easy process. I am still waiting for my trays to come back and then I will start the whitening process.

In the video I am talking to my friend Taylor. As she was filming me I was actually telling her about how I started using CBD oil and I love it. (more on that one maybe in a later post)

If you want to see more of her work of photo and film.

www.tsphotoandfilm.com 

I will also be writing a part 2 with the teeth whitening, of me using the gel and then also the before and after photos. You will be able to get a discount for the whitening kit.

If you want to get started on your own kit you can save 10% by clicking on the link below and get your tray creation kit. The coupon code expires 8/31!


www.smilebrilliant.com/g/itsoktowander